10/10/10 2:45pm

Definitely didn't realize the date until just now. Thats kinda weird....according to my friend Lauren "you don't fuck around with dates." 

I was just thinking about how you know when you're attracted to someone. I'm trying to figure out if it's supposed to be instantaneous or develop slowly over time. If it happens quickly, you run the risk of not taking the necessary time to get to know the other person, a few months go by in a flash, the initial lust part wears off and you're slammed with the fact that everything went way too fast. But, if it develops slowly then you're in for five or six awkward conversations with drawn out pauses and it's no ones fault, but you then question if it's really going to go anywhere. Then that leaves the possibility of talking yourself out of pursuing a further relationship. I'm not solely talking in romantic terms, the same can happen in friendships. We've all had those people who you instantly click with but no longer talk to because you said everything you could possibly say in the first 3 sleepovers. Or you make a friend in class, walk home every day together, but are afraid it would be awkward to ever suggest spending time together out side of class because after all, you're "class friends." 

Or maybe I'm over-thinking the path to forming relationships and need to let what will happen, happen.

First blog experience

Well, the creation of this blog was simpler than I expected. I am generally opposed to internet stuff like this. By "generally" I mean since I deleted my Facebook three months ago (I'd like to note that when I typed facebook a red line showed up underneath the word, but disappeared when I capitalized it...way to go Mark) . Since then I've discovered all these "new" sites that I never knew existed because the only time I was ever online was to creep on my friends/people who don't know I exist. I should feel a lot creepier writing that, but everyone does it, even the ones who tell themselves and others they don't....that's bullshit....they totally do. Anyway, back to the sites...Pandora?! Stumbleupon!? Who knew? Apparently everyone-but no one ever told me. I feel like I've missed out on half of my generation's online pass times. I started a twitter 30 mins ago, but deleted it about 20 seconds after. As much as I care about sn00ki's drunken escapades, this somehow seems like a more constructive way to waste my time. Yeah...I'll go with that. If nothing else it will help me practice and later track my developing writing skills. I doubt anyone will read this, which is kind of my intention. I'm not going to tell anyone I know about this, I'm going to keep it a secret from everyone. I journal now, but my curious roommates seem to have caught on and taken an interest in my melodramatic rants that make up 90% of my entires...so I'll try this as a way to (hopefully) get (some) thoughts down. Or, this might be my one and only entry and when I enter the job market in a few years I'll wake up in a cold sweat in the middle of the night before my first interview, rush to the computer and delete this because apparently employers check up on these things. If nothing else, when my grandchildren read about blogging in history books I'll be able to say "Yeah, I blogged."